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Showing posts with label remembrance. Show all posts
Showing posts with label remembrance. Show all posts

Friday, November 12, 2010

Another Remembrance


Yesterday was Veterans Day in the US. It is not a holiday I have taken much notice of before. I think I have been like many Americans who may have seen it as another "free" day; a chance at a long weekend. This year I picked up a new awareness. Maybe it's the economy, the election, the general state of the world. Or maybe, just maybe, I am getting a little wiser with age.

In the morning, I stopped by one of my local favorite hang outs. A coffee shop that always has a nice buzz, even if you don't drink the coffee. I affectionately refer to it as the "Slow Zone" because no matter how small or large the order, everyone who enters must hang out and wait a while. Life in Sedona. Coming from New York, this was a bewildering culture shock at first. Now, it has become one of the charming aspects of this place.

I hope you enjoyed that digression; I am now getting back to the heart of the matter. I was prepared to sit quietly responding to emails while waiting for my small, hot beverage. When I overheard another patron address one of the departing victors who had finally earned what he had ordered. It sounded like she said "[garble, garble] did you serve?" While I was trying to figure out what she was saying he started talking about his time in Iraq. She politely thanked him for his service and wished him a nice day. This is not an abnormal conversation in this town or even in the Slow Zone. However, I was sensitive to it because it was Veterans Day. I asked myself, why couldn't I offer this kind of appreciation. Now that I heard their conversation, I realized his jacket had a military slogan or insignia. Hmmmm. What channel was I tuned into?

Yes, I have been a person of peace for much of my life. Yes, I have not wanted our nation to go into war. Yes, I have expressed my disagreement with some of the decisions and views of our political leaders. But, shouldn't I have room in my heart for the young men and women putting their lives on the line? Am I not a person who has extolled the virtues of public service?

Well, I had a greater opportunity to check myself today. I attended an appreciation service for Korean War Veterans. My maternal grandfather served in that "conflict." But I did not know much about it or what the service of those men and women meant. I heard some stories and speeches that really touched my heart and showed me how human souls can grow, even from something as distasteful as war. I heard about the courage shown for the benefit of strangers. I heard about soldiers who hid away food to feed starving children in a country of strangers. I also heard deep heartfelt statements of gratitude. This is not the first time I heard Korean people express their gratitude and admiration for the service of American citizens on their behalf. It had greater resonance today with some of those servicemen being present to hear the gratitude.

It's amazing how much we complain. Many Americans can take the opportunities, choices and freedoms for granted. We often feel entitled to better and more than we have now. It's amazing because I heard letters and presentations from Koreans who say that they owe their economic success and political choices to the sacrifices made by these strangers 60 years ago. Hmph! I couldn't even recognize how the service of my own grandfather, father or brothers has contributed to my educational, career and political choices. I really felt that I had to repent for not fully acknowledging the contributions of service men and women. My mindfulness was missing something vital: an element of compassion.

If my highest aspiration includes the improvement of the collective health of my people, I have to recognize this. I have to learn to value a fuller spectrum of service and contribution to society. So, I say thank you to all of you who have served, are serving or will serve. Thank you. I promise you that Veterans Day will never be the same for me again. It will be a "free" day to appreciate and celebrate the sacrifice.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Day of Rememberance


Georgena Ruth Lee Alexander
October 8, 1940-December 15, 2003


I Can't Make it Without You...

Yesterday was my mother's birthday. She "went home" almost 7 years ago, so I wanted to honor her memory in some way. In many years past I have done something special on this day. Sometimes I place a bouquet of flowers under beautiful tree, make a donation to a charity or call one of my siblings for a deep heart-to-heart talk.

But I did none of these things this year. Somehow, I internalized it. Holding on to the special flame of her memory while I worked, telling my friends the story of how my parents got together, laughing out loud at some of the everyday quirks that made her unique. It was different; and maybe, because I am a little deeper into my fourth decade on Earth, I encountered a new feeling of gratitude toward her. You know, it is easy for us to thank God for the gifts and experiences of life, but it is not so easy for me to attribute any of what I have to my mother. I spent so much of my life trying to carve out my own identity within the overpowering presence of my relationship with her. Even when I was miles away from her.

This time, I acknowledged the integration of her choices and behavior in my life. I have to thank her for the influence that helped bring all of the loving people into my life, that helped me discover new adventures, that helped me reach out to the world and into myself. I can see now that I am so crazy about being of service, because it was something she valued highly. She showed us the beauty of sharing and playing well with others, even when her words were sharp or irreverent. She showed how a true artist is her own canvas, reflecting creativity through her life.

When I was young, I heard my mother tell the story of how she behaved differently when she was pregnant with me and that when I was born, she had a spiritual experience. She said that she prayed and dedicated me to God, offering me up to God. Just as Hanna did in the Bible, giving her son back to God, promising that my life would be spent in service to God. I really bristled every time I heard this. Not only because I thought my mother dramatic for comparing us to biblical personalities, but I thought it was not fair. How could she make that promise for me when I was not in a position to choose? Well, now that I am a more mature human, I know that there are many worse choices a mother could make. In fact, I can think of few better choices. On an unconscious level, I accepted that promise and made it my own. I truly believe it has gifted me with a continuing sense of life's blessedness and my own value. So, even in my toughest times, I had a sense of purpose and believed in the power of a divine connection. In fact, I cannot imagine life without it.

So, I am grateful, not only that my mother gave birth to me. I am grateful that she honored my life, taught me how to cherish the beauty of life and to create more beauty by being of service. She remains a part of my life. So even when she is not here, all of her prayers for me still protect me and bless me. I know she is resting in peace because I am.






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Now playing: Shari Addison - Can't Make It Without You
via FoxyTunes

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Now playing: Shari Addison - Can't Make It Without You
via FoxyTunes